Emotional detox During emotional detox an issue popped up connected to my work where a wound from my childhood 'not being good enough' surfaced. I have worked with this issue for the past 20 years and I was surprised when it popped up again. Someone told me that the value I give her is not equal to the value she gives to me. I did some calculations and turns out that I gave many times more value than she gave to me.
So I realized again how much I still over deliver to people motivated by my personal deep fear that they will not be happy and it would not be enough.
Self fulfilling prophecy - that is what exactly happened.
We all would love to feel loved and get a lot of loving attention. When we do not get it and we do not express our needs verbally or openly we start to force other people to give it to us. When we start to demand it, it usually pushes people away from us.
As this story is pretty long it will be shared in two parts.
Detoxing is one way to take care all of you. It is a challenging act of self-love, but very rewarding when it is done right.
I would have never thought that I would start to enjoy and manage to do detoxes on regular bases. Many of my health conscious friends are doing detoxes at least every 6 months. During my recent years I have done one longer detox at least once a year if not twice a year. With this note I look back into my detox history and how my last detox experience was like.
*** The very first detox I did in my life was when I was in my twenties. I remember we traveled to the countryside in Estonia and did not drink or eat anything for 3 days. We walked every day for hours in the forest and we did saunas in the evenings. I could hardly walk during my third day as I felt so weak. I also had very strong headaches. I could not understand what...